Alright… Gma Bday remberance day.. that the aunties was puttin on for the last ten days…
I remember alot about both of my grandmas… But especially granny B, Fine and foxy, classy, sweet, always make sure wash ya hands, grandma lol… Grandma got me into all the scary movies as a kid in 80’s and all those scary books from king.. She could cook almost any thing.. Chilli and spaghetti’s were my favorite.. Once i ate so much of her homade cheesecake in one night, that i stop eating cheesecake for years… We had a bunch of funny moments… lol, and she tried to fix my posture and give me some etiqute.. Grandma said.. when i sat in a recliner all slouched… “Jus image what you like nekked sitting like that…” I close my legs quickly… grandma was funny… the coolest i remember, was i heard my grandma bragging about me to her neighbors at the her older house. She was excited that i was going to college out of state… She knew the college and everything…. which shocking to me because she had like 35 grandkids.. lol. so for her to know all the details of what i was doing cool. Make My Grandma Proud moments… ya know? Grandma was G, we had our private moments from the hood ,those private moments from the projects to tell..
I like to say my grandma paid for that long career with eye and ear… since her passing came when i earned the opportunity..
and yes i appreciate her.. just a little rememberance that doesnt cause sweet voices from grannies all over country.
gonna update late on the first… im not really ready…
imagine.. trying to move on in life but always getting told someone elses secrets..
its the subtle things i dont wanna experience again…
she was so high in the photo… that so many moments… of *b*tch get down* with males that shoulda been cool with her…
fiddlers on the roof tops of buildings.. hoping they put the buildings in submission. lol
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but also how much penfed pay him to say that.. they bank terrible and they nosey… and they always have those people that follow you around… can i get paid a normal account without restrictions…. navyfederal bank better no lie… dont join my crew… im jus tellin the truth… they be so quick to a p in they mouth cuz somebody a male.
lol …
thoughts for the day… if i could tell you how interesting that is from a perspective of the same 6 people in alignment on variation on variation…
but anyhow…
would you go on a detox with me, we could be accountability partners.. its more for you than me..
got one more day til.. DECEMBERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!
month of over using DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD and everybody normalizing red and green……
December be like everybody wear red and tell all those personal things about each other with themselves.
if u hear somebody crying about my eye its because they did not want to be feminine they wanted to
fake a crier…
Have yal seen the haunting of that yellow “i lost weight with glasses and the no glasses next picture? spam on facebook? everytime… that photo show up, its like the haunting of a previous co-worker… over and over… miserable.
honestly I … needed a nicca who was in the trenches with me… not a nicca who just wanted to say ” i’ll pray for you”…
moments and thoughts…
its like post tramatic, previous gigs, syndrome starring like 20 of my favorite entertainers and 20 of my friends …
I like december… for possibilty… and who knew all the people who others would preceive so intritricate were born around my favorite middle of the month days..
Late night early morning prelude thoughts into 11/29…
… positive ways of expressing my concerns…
*** ques rhythmic clapping and beating on bongos while soulful bass plays ***
Could not sleep, neighborhood turned into mind, and i could see all the things dirty that needed to be cleaned up… Clean mind.. someone always in love with ” you can ring my ….” We gone clean up everything everywhere i go if thats all she is.. as her..
jus as the lion king line up, so as the, i hope you enjoy the beast.. being so positive… cause its a new month of stuff to understand …
marvelous meticulous mind clean up everything, beasti dearest..
i wanna take a 1000 showers, in all clean white porclien, bathrooms.
every little out of place thing.. annoying… every little speck … dissatifaction..
and this why i do not urinate everywhere or in just anyones bathroom..
so when instagram try to be mind… he chooses the video of the dirt with turantulas and the hand picking them up… or … when they put salt on sand and them creatures that look like pixy sticks rise out … and plays that in dream when sleeping in rem status..
imma need liquor in the middle of my juicing… jus to tolerate the rust from all the rain..
this why my apartment in az was always really clean..
they at night time would show me what the creatures so small could see about disgusting things.. like dust in the corner… paper on the ground… mold in fridge, colonoscopies, porus skin. insides of microwave stains. small stains on corners like somebody spilled ketchup or speghetti…. and focus on it..
remember ” cant stop wont stop “…
who story wanna be in the story about roots of bey…
feels like imma update so things later today of 11/29/2022
yeah, im not liking the new updates to the digital mailbox.
peaceful fun dreams would be about laying and loving.. such as he wish she would.. but the neighborhood acting as mind… and they cleaning the streets with duster/rinsing vehicle.. …
Now let’s rewind to earlier monday…..
Do you know why I stop going to my friendly neighborhood wonderful resort of a gym..
That all access me stuff they use to do with niccas bodies.. when they wanted people to experience other people without their permission… (this why i wanna work remote forever!)
for some reason in women’s locker room, they had annoying western new money voice laughing, while someone tried give the women reproductive system… pain.. i stop going… and haven’t been back since… that and.. they like all the men with 94′ HB boomerang hair style to be women.. and would always want their son to use the women’s restroom.. how many of yal do that now?? boy come in… all the titties be out… and vaginas walking around.. never ask that boy if he like those things…
but i value your womanhood…
Womb…
uterus…
eggs…
Fallopian tubes…
cervix….
vagina….
labia minora/majora
clitorus…
it is the most stressful.. when someone want that menstration cycle every 2 weeks to pay things that way..
i dont need one right now…
although… its a celebratory time… when…
and thats my thoughts on that..
wanna make some babies together…? just like the holiday season, i can take donations of them little squiggly tings that go “weee” if them genetics right..
Turkey Baster … no lie.. oral syringe.
aight goodnight
imma advocate.. of pick ya body / home / up and leave … if they not treating you right…
if ya house make u sick… i suggest doing whatever to get that situation changed.
i hope you have peace, love, affection, rest, satisfaction, enjoyment, day in and out of your entire life… even in uncomfortableness..
